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You used up your last money to buy me my fav orangie
You walked such a long way to pass it to me.
And to give me the hugs i needed most for that day.
U don't demand me to give a reason to you y i off my hp and y i feel so emo.

How can I thank you for such pampering..

Mr Teo. Thanks. *muack*

When i wrote this date...the 3rd time.. i realise.. today was the day...
i tried so hard to force it out of my mind. But i still ended up being emo in office.
Hated it. Wanted to call BB so much.. but my hands just couldnt move.
In the end, i switch my hp off.

Each time when I suddenly realise i needed him, i fall deep in him..
I pull myself out. I call for a stop.
I duno why.
Yes, maybe i am scare. I scare i hurt him in the end. I scare i hurt myself.
I can afford all kind of hurts in the past.
But now... i duno why i have become such a coward.
I just keep hurting him unknowingly.
Fark. I hated this.
I hate all this.

Its the first time I saw u looking soo upset on me.
Frankly, I wished you sound more angry on me than u looking so pale and sad.
I hated myself for just brushing u off when u just wanted to let me know, u care and you wanted the best for me.

Maybe I really lost myself this time round.
Everything just really went so fast...
and ya, mayb tts y.. i not not thinking and handling it well with my head now.

The words u told me. I promise i will remember and think properly.
I respect ur decision and hope we will prove u wrong in times come.


I shld be thinking as the old Fanny Ma Shuxian. C'mon think well!

13 November 2008.
My Day with BB.

Actually took leave on this day with BB cos he's gona have a busy weeks later on.

I had my day started with BB cooking breakfast for me the 2nd time. 1st time was he had actually caught me by surprise when he showed up with his home-made burger for me to bring to work. :) and him, not slping the whole nite after a chalet. -.-
The breakfast was great!!! And it comes with my fav ORANGIE. Perrfect ! *wide smile*




My plan for the latter day. 1 day. 2 movies. Keke
Madagascar was great!! Kept luffing.
Quantum of Solace. Disappointed. At a point, i fell asleep on BB's arms. Ha.
Walked from Marina Sq to Clarke Q, The Central, in between our movie break.
Mission, to buy everyone fav choc roll!!! Bought for BB's family, which they like it v.much when i gave them eat the 1st time. Gee.
And ya, we settled our dinner @ Waraku !
Food taste fine fine only. Mayb i get the wrong dish.. :(




Walked back to Marina Sq again for the 2nd rd of movie. I like to walk with him. Get to see many stuff that I always din get to see and notice. I love..

After the last movie, went back to BB hs to collect my lappy back hm and for BB to settle somem work stuff and also! pass his mum the choc roll. (BB so called - BRIBE - ing) -.-
When I was at BB hs in the morning, I saw 2 of his darling sisters. Cute!!!!!

Shan Shan & Weiwei - Cute hor!
When Shanshan ask me abt my tattoo, my hair color, did i smoke....
i was like soo -.-" Scare i portray as bad bad girl... which i seriously NOT!!! :(
So i pray hard.. both of them likes me..
Weiwei ish cute, when she keep asking me wat m i doing when i was applying make up preparing to go out... i don even know how to ans her.. so i went -.-" once again. Ha.

Saw BB's mum the 1st time and the very first remark is "U so tall !!" Okay. So i went -.-" once again. Haa.
Anyway, i really hope i can erm.. at least put some gd impression on her on tt day. At least some, pls. Haa..
Talked and played with Shanshan & Weiwei when BB is busy with his work stuff. Shanshan gave me a box of stars she make herself.. GEE! I so happy lo. Ha.
And Weiwei was so cute with her singing the ABC song for me. Haa.. KOR AI de!!


BB came over to join us after his work and there goes their pillow fight. Ha. Very funny, very cute! Witnessing BB tt close with them, make my heart goes feeling so sweet. I like the way he handle and play with them. Mature but yet still close to them. Very close. I like...


The fotos BB took when I am trying hard to avoid him taking my face. keke.
I like the fotos he took. Nice.





To you,

Thanks for loving me. THanks for pampering me. Thanks for everything u had done for me. You do make me feel different. And I hope I had done so to.
*Muack*






November 2008 !!
Time passed sooo sooo fast!

NOVEMBER UPDATES COMING UP...

07 Nov 2008
Girls Night Out @ The Arena & Double O










The night is fun.
Went to The Arena to find Juan 1st. Live band and music is great. But from what we see, the dance floor was... *HAAAA*
Anyway, saw Juan's collegs too. Quite a friendly bunch of ppls.
Den walk to Liang Court Mcd for some light snack cos I AM HUNGRY, drink without eating.. :(
Walked to Double O. Saw werid werid AngMoh.
Den met-up wit BB and his frends @ Double O.
Saw KL there, he's still the same.
Glad to intro BB to my ladies. Even more happy, they all so far had gd impression on him.
Keke..
Den we had some girls-chat.
Met-up with BB again for Bak Gu Teh, which I think i am the only 1 drinking. -.-"
And with BB sending me home. Talked till ard 6am and had breakfast after I complained of my gastric pain.
Was nagged terribly by BB :(

BUT !! I feel blessed hanging out with my ladies and getting love by BB

Too much to blog..
That's the problem when you become lazy to do regular updates.
Will start on things i can remember...

For October 08!

10-Oct-08
Steamboat / Chilling session with JY, CW, Juanie




Steamboat @ our fav "Xian de Lai" & chill @ Alps reco by JY.
I have my fun with my guys... as always.. :)


14-Oct-2008
Aida - House warming / Hari Raya / See Baby !!

Went over after work with collegs...


It was fun. Baby is cute! The kiddy boy is cute too...
And this lady is younger than me and she had 2 kids alr!!!!! haiz.. tell me wat m i doing?? :(
Have more interesting and crazy pix with Hotmama.. just waiting for her to send us.


16 Oct-08
Farewell party - Karen left Co.


25-Oct-08
Fang's Bday celebration

-Will update pics here soon- :p


31-Oct-08
YR Wedding dinner


Love them soo much. Cute & funny couple.
Stayed quite late for the sake of my "ah jie"
acc her, the groom is dead drunk on tt day. Poor man, vomit like siao..


More updates to come~~

my first time feel so sad...
i understand u doesnt mean tt..
but... but i just felt it...
mayb i just took it too hard..
althou i know, i understand... but...

mayb the words just din really describe wat it means...



"i just wanted to do tt, tts all. simple with no intention"

22 Oct 2008
I started a new chapter of my life with a special someone...

10月22号2008
我开始我新的生活。。。


虽然偶尔还不习惯他对我的好。。 觉得一切来的太快。。
但我还是很庆幸有了他在我身边。。

谢谢你。。 ：）

Thanks him for the understanding.
Thanks him for the perseverance.
Thanks him for showering me with his love.
Thanks him for pampering me.

To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.

Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March. I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven.

















































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