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ya, we got back tgt..
don wish to talk more abt it..
all I know, at least we have each other back finally.

Spent my last wkend with Hu papa
Glad tt he stay over at my hs..
those huggies slp, warms my heart.

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Tiring week @ work.
Sometimes when u have those irritating collegs wrking with u.. its really a test of your patience and level of tolerance...
lucky for them, I can still smile when their mouth just shit rubbish out..
treat them as a barking crazy bitches...
Nini & YR said im too easily to be bully..
mayb i am.. mayb cos wat i just wan is a happy full of laughter environment ard me..

din eat much @ lunch time cos of Bee's emails today which make me & Nini luff till we are full.
wasted a whole junk of food today :(
gOsh.. i really miss those back to poly days when we spent our days studying tgt for exams, tests and project.. it just end up to have fun and laughter.
damnn... time really couldnt turn back.
For now, wat we really yearn its our mthly mouth-watering dinner gathering.

Tml will be wrking half day and a day leave on fri...
cant wait to meet hu papa tml !

My random pixes... ....




最近的我没哭了那么多了
也许是真的哭 累 了吧

也真的该不哭了
不该再逃避 ..
要好好的想着我们的事了

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去(待续)
(相信你我还会有开始
只因我们都没有错)

刚发现他有了一个 blog
去读了一下，　
也发现其实我们都在痛，　都在不知所错　．．．
但我庆幸得是他对朋友说了，知道他没一个人在面对，　有了朋友的依靠，　我放心多了

我在想要不要让你知道我的blog．．
其实你应该知道的，　也许你以前没在注意吧
你写着说有了blog 是要知道对方过的好不好．．　但是我在这里把我心里话写出来．．　我不希望我在这里写的每一个字影响对方的想法或决定．．
我不要你对我有可怜，　心疼我　．．而影响了你．．

看来这几天其实你都做了许多你爱的事情．．　而这些我好象一至一来都没办法陪你做．．
我有在为你开心，　真的．．
也许那样的你，是最快乐得吧．．　

我们常　碰到了瓶颈．．　对话，　喜好，　想法，　也连出街也会．．．
可能现在我们真的有机会让我们想一下我们真的会有一个幸福的未来吗．．．．

yester just went to a interview with nini after work ard little india area - boon siew building??..
was pretty rush of us, rush all the way dwn..
the manger was pretty charming guy thou...
get to know more of the job scope.
but probably not getting it, too challenging for this slacker.
My mind turn blank after an hr of interview with him.. was really hungry and there keep having a point of time that the whole interview went quiet and nini was soo quiet and i have no choice but to thikn more quest to ask and to fill in the emptiness...
we was so afraid that our sound of grumbling stomach was so loud for the manager to hear that.. end our interview ard 9pm. walked back to the mrt alone was nini took the free ride frm them. Had my very late dinner.

And tdy was the mthly gathering for my polys guyz.
last min arrange for sheels to join us.
This time ard was at IMM Ichiban sushi..
not nice at all..
and thks KF again for the free taxis ride hm.. !
Its was pretty fun today at work with all those emails chats with kf, bee, nini & zy.
We flooded zy inbox with more than a 100emails.. !
Hurr.
Was fun !

Have been having dizzy spells lately
my eyes was blurred almost all the time when i looked at the pc screen nowadays.
the dizzyness just make me so frustrated and its hard for me to concentrate on my work.
isit mayb im not slping well...
wats happening to me ?

Had a really bad day tdy.
Early morning had mum to ask me why he hasn't been coming over for days. Tried my best to act as normal and reply to her.

Was late for work and so had to spend $$ on mr cabby to work

Received his sms which my heart thump like crazy. To inform me to b careful as there's more case of robbery ard my area. All i rem to do was to only reply a 'thanks' to him..

Received bro's gf to tell me that my bro is keeping lotsa feeling and stuff in him, stressing him to break dwn badly laz nite. Was deeply sad and worried for my bro after reading kexin sms... make me think alot too. Sms-ed bro, and the reply from him to me was " don't worry sa gua... " Its the 1st time he smsed me sa gua which my heart melts....

And i duno why tdy my collegs keeping asking stuff abt me n him... like are he goin to the bbq with me, is he joining us for the house warming.... totally make me so difficult to ans them.. tough time.


I think i did pretty well tdy. Din cried as much as the past days i had.
Probably just a few more days...
i am able to think well abt us.
For now, my everything was in a mess.

Think i am not really strong as what i think i can be.
Tried my best to be very ok in the office.. joking and talking more.. to be my usual self.
But the harder i tried to be, swallowing tears more painful as ever.

Back home, i dreaded to be in my rm.
Just a step in, the sensation to cry immediately come to my eyes.
I dread to be alone but i wan to be alone.
Complicated touts.
Wat I wan, I really don know now.
Told juan and aud abt it.
and many thks to my sista for the wonderful support.
really almost make me break dwn in office, to run to ur side and have my head on your shoulder.

Are you over my another side feeling as weak as im ?
I hope you did nth to hurt urself.
I hope cw did wat he promise me to acc u.

Cant really slp well.
Maintaining my smile to mum every morning and night is a tough task.
Hate the time being alone.
Thoughts tend to wonder.
Hate ear phone in my ears.
Music make me sad.

I tout i can handle well on the separation.
I tout i can handle my tears well outside too
But I just failed.

Mayb now working is my only time off..
only time i can prevent my touts to drift away.

Yester asked CW to acc him if he has the time.
Probably just hope that he wont end up like me thinkin more when alone.
For me, Im trying my best to keep my mind out of it.
To keep my mind calm and stable,
to think are we suitable for each other.

(Im scare to look at Bluey now. Im sorry to stuff u aside, i really cant handle the pain in me every nite. )

Surprised that I can be still so calm when we both reached to have that decision.

For the 1st time,

I will be thinking alone
I will be sharing every of my happiness & woes alone

I promise,

I will use this time to re-think our r/s seriously

No matter wat... no matter wat both our decision turn out to be..

its no 1 faults...

To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.

Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March. I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven.

















































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