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hi guys..
im moving soon.. tml is the day.
won be online till duno when...
will try to find time to update whenever i have the chance..

BF came to my hs to surprise me yester
:: big wide grin ::
so he can come out every friday...
which sound great for me...
i love his hair.. nice to touch..
i love his uniform.. look very smart
i love the way he look...
:: haa haaa ::

im still very trouble how to settle my hammie..
haiz... :((

aniwae..
im back to my packing....
miss u guys ~!!

Im sick today
woke up with terrible aches all over my body
headache, slight fever, flu.....
this few nites, im not slping well at all

So i skipped my only lecture class today.
But i have to pack my room....
Dust everywhere...
Boxes everywhere...
my room is 3/4 ........ ..... not done yet ...
it sucks to pack ur room when u r sick...
slow progress....

short post today
back to rest..

8am class today...& i din really manage to slp well last nite...
well, the class end ard 1pm..

went to JE as i don want to go hm so early
cos i hate to be alone at hm nowadays
i don wan myself to think too much..
or else i will start missing BF too much

so.....
i went to JE alone for shopping
I love JE This Fashion
i spotted alot of clothes which i saw at the Taiwan aution
Hang ard there for 2hrs....
met up with Nini after her 1st driving lesson..
walked ard JE.. & had our dinner.. my fav fishball noodle... :D
then we went to IMM
Nini & i can really shop~~!!!
:: haaa ::
IMM changed quite alot.. lotsa shops.. shops.. shops.. & shops ~
but im moving soon... :((
saw clothes there too...
guess when a person mood is down..
shopping seem to start...
but i did control myself cos i haven really save money yet...
& i had force Bro & make him promise me to sponsor part of my spending after he gets his pay..
wheee~~!!! :))
Back to it,
nini & i went to Daiso.. our fav spot
& yay... shop~!!
had to end our shop trip ard 8.30pm cos i nid to rush hm & gib BF a called at 9.30pm

anyway
thks to Nini for acc me at the end...
i had a great time..

i hope i can get over with moving out of here
moving away from my dad
but for the time being..
i really don wan to think too much
cos i cant take the blow without BF beside me...

sch is as usual the same
the start of sch is filled with b0-chap attitude

monday went to BF's hs after sch to help to pack his stuff
he brought shampoo along..& i said
"baby.. u r goin to be botak leh... y got shampoo.. u wan to wash where?? "
& BF face went -.-"
:: haaaa ::
we slacked.. and chatted...
& den had dinner with BF's family...
i think his mama is worry.. heard tt she cried last nite..

wake up really early at 7am to mit BF at CCk for breakfast b4 he go for his intake
ate & chat... & i bought our Baby Bluey in my bag for him to see... :))
BF said his mama cried again this morning..
she's worried...
at 9am.. BF cabbed to his station & dropped me hm on the way...
i fought hard with tears in front of BF
& kept telling myself its only for 10 days
& i think i did well...... :))

my mood is not really improving to be good
chatted with Juanie at MSN just now...
thks for cheering me up, babe..

BF called 3 times just now..
he is offically bald ~
his campmates seem not bad
but he's stress with the learning of commands
:: which i believe he will do well ::
and he had the biggest size of the cap...
:haaaaaaaa:: :D

i think today i cope quite well from missing u..
i will just see u soon...



i guess im right.... im really moody...

when i finished my previous post
BF called...i just burst out with tears....
think i scare him badly.. :((

im trying to keep myself from missing BF too much
but its kinda hard trying.. but i will worked hard on tt
or else i will have to cry myself to slp everynites

but the main problem is for me to move out from my current apartment
BF really understands me well..
right after i told him cos of moving out from here
& straight aways he said "must be becos of ur dad"
but bad move... he make me tears more...
cos i tried to control myself after i scare him badly

this hs means alot to me..
alot of memories i had of my dad
wat happen if i move out of here...
i know memories are meant to keep deeply in heart...
but how can... how.... i duno...

here is the plc where he last slp on
here is the plc where he cried to me like a baby
here is the plc where he prepare his rojak sauce
here is the plc where i help to massage his feet whenever he had cramps
here is the plc where he said I LOVE U for the 1st time to me
here is the plc where his last days are spent
here is the plc where i have soo much memories of him
so how can i just leave it...........
i just don wan to leave soo apart..
at least staying here.. i felt close...
at least its a HOME we all share b4...

but how dad....
how.. im leaving this hs soon..
everything changed...
im just so afraid everything changed.. & i felt so distanced from u even more..
dad, how can i just placed all the memories inside me....
i felt so guilty to u.. and now.. moving out
i felt even more guilty for leaving u..............
dad.. i felt so terrible now
dad.. i really miss u.
dad.. im sorry.
dad.. i love u.

this few days had been a tough period for me
with BF goin for his intake soon
& i failed to get the desire modules i want...
& im moving out of CCK soon... very soon..
i just feel soo0 uncomfotable...

aniwae...
BF stayed with me on fri.. till sunday morning..
we had quite a big fight on fri... :((
::tears::
but we ended it fast... & it which make me realised something impt

saturday a small gathering of sec frends at Omni theatre
juan, xf, anna, junge, cw, poon & joseph
as usual, great fun, chats...
i din really eat much on tt day.. duno y...
its differ u know, my sec frends mostly chiong for alots of fresh oysters
while my poly.. they go for lots of fresh sashimi salmons...
no fotos taken.. cos i also duno y no take fotos..
mayb every1 just involved in chattings and eating..

Had an open house sales for the wkend
we paste papers ard the neighbourhood blocks
response was gd for the 1st day..
well in fact, mostly everything were sold..
including my computer table..
so i actually using my pc on the floor now.. :D:D
& my day to move out of my house is comfirm ...
im staying only for 1 more week.. & im off to my granny's hs
god, whenever i think of it.. something tug my heart...
i just kinda feel NOT GOOD at all.. NOT GOOD !!
BAD BAD BAD BAD b0oh0Ooo... :((

& as i said BF goin for his intake soon t0o..
this coming tues..
dammit..
i hope i can still hear his voice everynite b4 i slp
cos he still haben get extra batt for his hp....
his goin in for consecutive 10 days....
& i feel totally NOT GOOD too NOT GOOD AT ALL...
i think im gona miss him badly....

i actually wanted to whine & whine abt my elective modules
& abt how fark up how SP sys have..
but i stopped myself cos im getting pretty moody right now

think i better stopped here....
im really feeling something not right with me...

TodayYester has been a run ard Singapore day for me...

aniwae, i went back to sch
saw Emily, Kellyn, Jo.. we all share the same lab..
saw Dage.. my best talkin kaki
saw bEE .. with short but fresh-look haircut
saw Fun & Ni.. everything the same.. -haahaa
-happy :))

mit up with J____
hope everything gona be gd...
heex.. *secretive*

fake nails on my fingers right now..
kinda having a hard time typing... -frowns
trying to get used to it -hahaa

this sat gona haf a simple gathering at Omni Theatre for buffet again
this time is goin with my sec gangs
its for BF enlistment to police..

im broke... wat i had save is all gone
& i haven even buy ani clothing
-boohooo :((

i have to slp now..
tml waking early 8.30am to prepare for the reg of elective mod
its always seem like a war when its time to reg those stuff
sch sys lag like crazy -roll eyes 360deg
i hope nth go wrong at hm, i always haf errors reg at hm..
& im too lazy to go back sch to do these stuff.. way too early for a holiday season
pray hard for me tml everything will be smooth...

Good Night !

went out with BF to shop for his stuff for his enlistment to the Police
(& yaya.. he finally settle his guarantors' issue)

headed to City Hall 1st, for lunch cos 2 of us r extremly HUNGRY
& whooish.. out of the MRT & into the shopping mall
lotsa uniform handsome guys..
haa.. i mean those blue uniform... smart blue uniform guys walking ard
haaa..
& lotsa ang mohs wearing suits

headed to Bras Basah for my fav Tom Yum soup
its been soo long since i stopped working at RC
sad to know...
the stall is GONE
renovated into some idiot foodcourt.... :((

den we walked to Bugis..
planned to have some cheap hawker center food
walked thru the HOt bugis village
& !!
saw the whole hawker center is close
nice~~
den managed to coax BF to eat laksa outside OG..
but BF backed out cos he saw a kinda cute guy wrking there
he scare i look at him or watever..
urghh.. in d end..
we ate BK beside Sim Lim square...
haiz...

aniwae...
shop ard OG & Seiyu.. for any cheap stuff to buy for BF's enlistment To-Get-Stuff
way too expensive over there...
except BF manged to buy a nice swimming trunk..
heex..

den we cab to Beach Road
cheap cheap stuff there
surprise to see some shop selling nice clothes
den cab back to BF's hs
traffic jam jam jam...
and omost car sick twice...
i hate cab

goin to sch tmltoday...
:))

Have been in my Bro's room watching a new drama called PRISON BREAK
& the show is AWESOME !!! :D
the guy is cuteee~~ and incredible smart
& gosh.. he has a pair of amazing eyes....
its really an interesting drama to catch....

did a few searches of the lead guy
surprised to know he guest starred in ER, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Ghost Whisper
hmmm... wonder y i din manage to notice him..
well... he did manage to catch all my attention to him on tt show..
very well done drama...
:))

1 of its' screen shot



*updated*

fruit salad is great
its just make my day feels great ~~ !!

& yay.. the majong is still going on...
they haben start making my MOONCAKE~~ !!
:((


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its raining again
gd weather to keep me home for the whole week
well, at least i can save some money finally

Mama playing majong now..
Haa..
Later, Aunty Jes gona do some fresh, yummy mooncakes for us..
whee :D

its a great feeling to listen to great music
while big rain is pouring outside the windows..

My eyes are really blur now
Poor eyes is on the screen for a very long time
doing new some new layout

& yay
finally
i told myself to create another blog for BF & Me
i created once b4 but neglected it badly...
BUT ..
i wil maintain it just how hard i maintain my r/s with BF


Think i really nid to rest my eyes..
:P

i pass my exam

BF gets the confirmation letter from the police

Isn't it a great day ....

just did some msn backgrd..
this is 1 of them...

heex :P







abt to go off to mit BF & family...
for.. eh.... still-duno whose the baby-1-month celebration at Carlton Hotel
still abt nervous goin with his family
althou we are alr 4 YRS together...
haaa...
jialet...


aniwae...
yester went back sch for awhile
finally saw NIni & Fun..
wahahaaaa....
aniwae.. the takeover of fyp went quite smoothly
Nini & I went back to lib to watch the Stitch movie
I watched it twice..
& i can ony say..
god dammit.. Stitch ish CUTE~~~

haaa...
den played UNO with Fun joining in..
duh..
i lost.. twice ... with lotsa cards....
i know wat...
i can played UNO with them..
but with no forfeit..
cos i cant think wat will happen to me ....




kay..
back tp my prep..
& yay
i got the pix from Juanie liao..
will post it tonite


BF staying at my hs for 2 days..
He quit the job...
He just went out .. he's coming back later..
so im taking this chance to blog now..

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had a change of hairdo
& my Bro too.. but his not much drastic change..
Sponser by my beloved Bro..
by Kimage Leading Stylist Yvonne Wong...
hwahaaa..
my hair 1st time gib Leading stylist cut...
i like the style she gave me..
got lots of compliment for it...
heex...

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granny is hospitalised on last thurs again
visited her on tues....
& she's going home today...
hope she will feel much better when she's get home...
she's a cutie granny...
a granny that throw funny temper ard...
i just really wish she's fine now....


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going back to sch tml
for some FYP stuff

Sat goin to BF duno-which-cousin's-baby 1 month celebration

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played UNO card game with BF last nite
haaa...
a hell lots of fun..
loser with the the no of cards left
have to choose forfeit either no of whacks on the feet
or endure some ticklish things on ur feet
well...
itsn really fun...
UNO is quite a interesting card game to play with...

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( haa.. bro is in my room now.. he's jobless now.. do u have a nagging bro like mine..?? )

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& yay..
today is offically my sis 21st bday ~~~


i haven get the pix for tt day... will be posting asap after i get the hold of the pix...

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counting dwn...
3 more weeks to slp in my r0oom....

In memory of Crocs Hunter , Steve Erwin



He's my idol
i always catch his show, Crocs Hunter, whenever i can at Animal Planet...
his show is really entertaining to me..
His whole Australian Zoo crews like Wes, his wife Terri & his cutey daughter Bindi..
g0sh..
he left so abruptly..
soo young..
man prime time age.. 44...
i cant believe..
im really sad...

U're surely be missed by everyone...

yester was great at Juanie bday buffet..
had ktv-ing after tt..
aniwae.. its was fun..
i din really took lotsa pix with my hp .
some pix is wth Juanie..
will be out when i recieved it.


yester had experience an extreme pain ache within my bones
with my period coming..
its my 1st time experiencing my my bone aching in such way
its damn uncomfortable.. a totally torture to experience it
pop 2 of my strongest dose of painkiller..
fark..
i duno when i can stop my addiction to the painkillers..
my dose is getting stronger
& my pain is getting worse...
what the HELL..

mayb... mayb i shld really see some docs..... mayb ..




aniwae..
the pix of the video shooting i mention b4


pix of Juanie bday will be up s00n...

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