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had my 1st ever leg cramp frm walking too much.. 4 times~~ pain like hell.. been bugis today, went there for praying & as well acc Da ge to buy his com & also as well bee & i wanna check out price for mp3. 2day, i can 100 percent cfm tt kefun is pro in those IT thngys.. omg.. he talks more than ZY and great in bargaining price lor.. *thumbs up pu* So finally da ge had a new set of CPU, bt haven buy his LCD monitor.. and we met a uncle who help us to set up the CPU.. oh~~ he is so funny.. so dramatic uncle.. haha.. but also kinda siao siao type. i kinda realise why ppl wrking at Sim Lim all looks so ah beng.. oh my gosh..

Been using my bro hp Samsung e720c.. damn.. cant let myself use it long.. i will fall in love with it and if it happen.. damn.. he will have his hp back only in his dream.. haha.. but the 1st day that i use his hp to sch.. gosh.. drop it on the floor.. oppss.. darn.. think he won't b readin my blog.. just donno y i always have the tendency to drop things.. especially hp.. just waiting to buy a new hp after my 2nd line are cut off.. My contract haven really end for my another line but mum decided to use his boss tactic to lie to operator abt something to cancel the line which my mum claim it works everytime her boss call and cancel.. thou under my name, i won't b doin those things.. so have to wait for mum to b free and help me to call up and lie.. haha.. but i really need a new hp soon & fast.. my bro r rushing me to get a new 1.. damn...

Worse... i cant imagine.. my 1 & last hp is spoilt.. damn.. my fav samsung spoilt & nw is panasonic spoilt.. make it more worse is i just bought less den 2 mths.. fark.. tt show hw lousy 2nd-hand product can be.. waste my precious $$.. i could haf bought a better 1st hand hp then.. somemore i have to use my pathetic nokia 6620 with almost 3/4 of the screen spoilt.. shit la~~ don even dare to bring my hps for repair coz all my precious fotos with my darl frends & dearie r all in there.. not safe enuff.. darn.. think will have to tahan with my pathetic workable 1/4 screen hp for this week till im able to find lobangs to buy a new hp.. darn..

Start to realise im losing all my patience and my lazyness r taking over me.. im not following my regular steps on my facial care.. those toning, moisturiser.. im gettin more lazy.. my mum is naggin me now n then... especially she bought those Kose facial care pdt for me.. im not using it regularly.. think i have to buck up.. start to fight against my lazyness.. n also.. lately been to my fav Flower Pod website to survey which faical mask is better.. especially whitening type.. haha.. saw some raves on FreeMan Avocado & oatmeal Clay Mask, Just@100 Extra Brightening Mask & The Face Shop sheet mask.. lots of gd comments for their cheap and gd effects.. personally have the Freeman mask but kinda lazy to use after i bought it.. left on my table quite some time.. But decided to drop by bugis this week to c the Just@100 & TFS mask.. I decided to follow up all my facial-care steps and to have mask 3 times a wk.. better everyday.. haha.. yeah.. i must follow up.. urgh.. I MUST~~
And 1 more.. have a urge to do threading.. huge urge.. gonna do on my facial hair and eyebrow.. heard lots comments tt gd except for e unbearable pain.. but my urge.. i want~~ probably at clementi central.. heard ppl comment there nt bad thou is in a open area.. haaha.. but unless i find some1 to acc me.. i will b goin.. if nt.. still abit paisei.. at least if pain can grab each other hand.. haha.. *wink*



I felt the distance tt we are drifting apart. Those eye contact we usually have.. but now.. it seem so cold. Our two hands closely crossed together... there's no feelin in it.. how do i describe it.. i sense coldness, i sense distance, i sense tt everything have changed.. i hope im thinking too much again.. I really hope & pray.. Are all things happen just because it's a habit. On our way back hm.. we saw firework suddenly, up close to our view.. it's beautiful, it shld b d moment where our hands clasped together, lookin up the fireworks.. even quitely enjoyin it.. i will feel so fortunate.. but it just happen without anything.. he's not interested n we walked in our own ways, hands separated. It's not the same i know.. i cant always compare.. i know im gettin more paranoid on this.. but i cant help myself frm thinking.. i just don wish things turned out to b another way cos im really tryin hard...
I walked home alone to have a time to think. I tried my best to have all my thinking positive. I tried my best to control my emotion. I have been trying hard on everything.. im tired.. really.. i tried so hard to control myself ever since my dad left.. trying to control everything to look alrite on me.. for this moment i longed for a shoulder, a hug , a touch on my face.. i wanna drop everything dwn.. im tired. im sick of being the role of taking care of others, thinking for others.. It's impossible to have all these happen.. i know i m here kicking out all my fussy crazy emotion. Tt's all i can do.. kicking my fuss here.......

Initial D movie -- 3.5/5 Not much surprises in the movie.. quite humorous. Jay acting was okok to me, but still maintain his cuteness, and cool personalities in there..

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My beloved Fei Fei with her fav food, Corn~



A bloated dinner with dearie family at Turf City steamboat buffet.. A pre-Father's Day celebration dinner with dearie family.. Starting with a long waiting time to wait for his bro to fetch his parents.. Dearie siblings r all working society adults.. ard their early 30s.. all married with kids.. so hanging out with dearie family r sometimes kinda tough 4 me.. hard 2 find topics 2 chat.. thou nt e 1st time together wif them.. everytime meetin them.. sometimes do gib me cold feets.. even after 2+years... haha.. Anyway, Dearie family are all prawn monster.. tables are full of prawns shells.. 'hills' of it everywhere.. but i have to admit the prawns r fresh and dearie de Jie Fu r great in cookin prawns..

At 1 moment, when i saw dearie father is surrounded with his grandchildren.. i feel so envy.. tt moment, i think of my dad.. ever since i step into my sec life.. we stop celebrating father's day.. bt how i wish i can return him nw.. & hw i wish to c him surrounded with grandchildren just like wat i saw.. i imagine his smile.. he seldom smile.. the only smile frm him tt deeply engraved into my heart was the time b4 he can feel his death.. few wk b4, he's drunk back hm and keep sayin he wans to die faster.. i talk to him 1 to 1 at the living rm.. both of us cried.. he asked me:" Gal, Ni hen papa hor?" I reply no straight away.. he smiled.. smiled with tears.. tt smile.. straight went deep into my heart & mind.. nver wil i 4get.. he leave me wif tt smile & al my regrets 2 him..
so im at tere, sittin & lookin at dearie's dad position imaginin my father's image.. i almost wanted 2 cry.. bt i learn 2 control.. since his death i become more stronger to hold back my tears & swallow it.. i had 2 learn, my only weakness 2 strike my tears was my dad.. so i know whenever i go, do or see.. it will sometimes more or less remind me of him.. so i just cant cry in public just like this.. so i have to learn.. and i know i alr master it by divertin my attention fast..
Father's Day on Sunday... Sunday my bro bday... i plan to visit my dad.. den a little steamboat by my mum to celebrate bro bday.. just a simple 1.. still haben really decide wat to gib u cos almost all my slary had spent finish.. so mayb i'll b ya maid the whole day on sun.. not bad.. thinkin....
Sat, CW chalet.. still considering to go ant.. have to stay overnight.. but darn,. my unlucky day came.. totoally inconvenient for me.. bt.. urghh.. im still considering..

Im still wondering how tt person get my address!!!

Called me stubborn.. but i still insist not to put back my tagboard.. Don ask me why... frm the day i realise human being are all so fake & all those un-meaningless regards inside those tagboard.. i just get sick of it.. i'll be more confused whether those concerns are real or just for a show.. cyber-world seem just so different frm the reality we're living in.. utterly disappointed..
since the very day i took off my tagboard n announced tt unless anything peepz who really wan to talk to me.. find me thru email or my friendster msg or msn.. i realise 1 thing.. those norm taggers.. only some taggers do reply me in my mail or watever.. regardless any means they will send msges to cheer me up or so-ever and its still keepin on.. i know its troublesome.. bt frm tt i can only feel who really cares for who.. coz even 1 way of communication had broken dwn... in any cost or trouble.. they will still find ways to fix back the communication back with u.. there's how i realise alot of things.. i donch know wat u guys will think of it.. but it does make me realise something.. but anyway, my those regular taggers who fixed back those bridges just to reach me back.. i appreciate it very much.. in fact thks guys to make me realise so much.. K.I.T.

Im down with a terrible flu, jelly legs, terrible headache.. Nt a gd sign at all.. Been poppin medicine in my mouth ever since im hm frm sch... im like in a blur mind nw..

1 very interesting thing happen when i got hm frm sch.. guess wat i saw at my door-step.. nah, not cash, not any shits frm dogs or cats.. bt a small sweetly wrapped box.. Initially tout it was a rubbish or watever disgusting object inside.. so kinda use my leg n kick it aside.. haahaa.. bt saw a mini card beneath it.. took it up.. darn.. guess wat.. my name on it.. hurrs.. scare me to death.. thought is 1 of my girl-frend who dropby to gib me this.. (she does it sometimes).. bt handwriting nt hers.. e card said something like tis :
"Hi, fanny.. sorry if i have frighten u.. bt there's only this way i can think of to pass to u this present i bought for u. blah blah blah.. Hope u like it.. blah.."
And it just sign off as "A person" Wat surprise me was.. tt person knows my name Fanny.. hurrs.. my closest fren who knows me call me by my chi name.. except for my wrkin collegs & my poly frendz.. so~~~ WHO THE HELL R tt "A person" ~~ ! ? ! ? Where u gottcha my address ! ! It's gettin to my nerve to think y tt person are able to get my add with addition of my flu bug.. darn.. i feel so sick~~ I hate ppl behaving this way.. goin into the mysterious path doin those mysterious things.. OMG.. Don't let me find out whoever let out my address to any1 whom i dono.. I'll will blast tt person up... I just feel so errie opening my door now.. yucks yuck yucks..

Enuff of tt.. well, bascially, i just get thru my classes today with my runing nose.. and attended my GEM class specially even i just feel so sick and with my gangs urgin me to go hm and rest.. Well, din really regretted attending.. quite fun & interesting.. we haf to record our voice reading thru a story into a com to allow our lect to analyse our reading n how we can improve it.. fun.. but my nose just cant be more obedient.. cos just after each paragragh.. i can hear my voice recording my sniff sniff sniff into it~~~ argh.. luckily lect din manage to play it to the class.. just cant bear to hear my sniff sniff playin out to my class to hear..

i think tt's enuff.. i can feel some dizzyness in my head.. it's spinning.. i need rest..

anyway.. guys.. don gib out my add or nos to any1 without my permission.. it's rude......

ya, finally back to my bloggie... sorry guys for my very irregular updates.. almost 2 wks in sch have alr killed all my energy and mood to update.. sorry peepz..

Basically sch life are as usual bore~~ this sem i think we had almost all bad lects.. lecturer talkin in monotone, lecturer who don't speak well in Eng which is hardly un-understandable & a 1 with a big time strange attitude who lock students out of class just wan us to listen to her 'prayers'... & class shedule su*kz big time too~~ in fact extremely su*kz..
By request of Da Ge to update my blog with a foto which he specially took it and send it to my mail..
Board-Game ! ! Don really rem wats the name but its similar to Monopoly. We bunch were extremely bore with those long hrs of break and decided to play board game~~ haha.. actually quite meaningless playin tt.. but it does bring back memories when times i play board games with my cousinz and kor.. Well, anyway, we had great fun thou.. So DaGe.. c this foto.. happy mah.. haha~~


life on fri are extremely hard to go by with those oddz breakz.. damn.. fri seem too long to go by in sch.. its almost like the time spent in sch slackin are more than the time in sch studyin~~ duhz..

To Zon.. U're leaving soon. leaving us behind with those happy memories we all once shared so preciously.. I know this few years Im not together with u this grp so often in fact not often at all.. but u guys nver leave me feelin im out of this grp.. thks guys for those understanding and Zon.. u understand me well.. ur absence in my life will do make a difference.. as promise.. to keep in contact.. and is a promise tt we will nver break.. *winkz*

Had been in sch for 2 day since sch starts on Mon. A self-granted holiday given to myself on Mon.. so therefore, my officially Day 1 in sch is on Tues. Time-table are all in terrible state. Had almost lotsa 2 hrs break this sem.. gonna haf a long sufferin slackin period for this sem. Just 1 thing tt Im happy at is finally i can b able to mix with my gers... simply miss them lots.. n of cos.. my another 'sis' kaki of mine.. hurrs.. think tt person knows it la~~ anyway.. 2 wonderful things tt happen r tt Sarah is able to join us for all our lectures & my "les" partner Sheels is still with us~~ smuacks~~ great.. Not much change for my class... still the same old 21 class..
so far attended both my GEMs class...
GENE & U -- Young lecturer which idiot-lly selected me to b a treasurer for the class.. n darn.. i'll definetly make him regret his choice...
EFFECTIVE SPEAKIN SKILL -- A module tt won't have a chance slack in it.. all the time we need to talk out.. n today, cant believe we still nid to play the ice-breaker game again & learning the way of BREATHING~~ haha.. it's really a module tt require us to b outspoken & daring..

Some ppl are so stupid till they only know how to say ppl but did not know when is the moment and timing to stop it. They have no eyes & brain to observe ppl facial expression and ppl feelings.. well, these ppl they sometimes don deserve any respect frm any1 or mayb the respect frm me..

To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.

Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March. I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven.

















































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