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Nothing much happen today. Just attend claz, break, attend claz again, den after sch.. Went to babY deaR hs to slack till 5pm. Had my dinner at the market. Had the urge to eat the grilled chicken wing. Baby Dear order some for me. Ate quite alot. Bought my mum fav laksa for her. Intend to buy 1 packet for my mum but dEar insist I buy 2, 1 is for my mum while another 1 is for me coz he say I will get hungry real fast.. keeZ.. Had lotsa food today.. yummy delicious...
Ard evening, went to Lot 1 with mum & kor.. plan to buy some thing for ourselves with dad money for us to keep.. something last long and memorable.. but i still haven decided wat to buy yet..
Anyway, today got some1 bday... my so-called "sister"..



Claz starts at 10am. Thou today tried to go out of the house early 10 min. But ahem.. duno why Im still late for claz. Anyway, had 3hrs of VB practical. Still at the confused stage of that module. Had western food lunch with Bee at FC3. After awhile, Calvin, our VB lecturer join our table. Felt strange eating with a lecturer.. talk here and there.. argh.. quite boring la.. haa.. Then left school at ard 2pm.
Went to my grandma's hs at Kallang to take some thingy frm her... It was drizzling with rain.. took a walk to the market and bought some kueh for her. The maid was ill. Send her to the doc and acc my grandma till 4pm den went hm. On my way hm, I decided tml not to go for my GEM module again. I will be twice absent from claz. Don't scold me, the class are plain too boring & my grp members r simply.. haizz.. too boring and sianz.... How i wish they band me from attending the claz.. haa.. my wishful dream...




|ts been a moody night for me. Saw the report abt the disaster at INdonesia, Thailand, M'sia, Sri Lanka India, Maldives.. killing more than 6 thousands of ppl... scenes with bodies all over & ppl frantic finding their love ones, holding on to each other left me with tears.. its unbelievable how a natural diaster can caused. Its just at a split second. My mood just cant recover...
Just finished reading a blog abt a lady call Grace Chow, how she dealt with a uncurable tumor in her skull for 3 yrs knowing death is closing toward her. It left me with tears again. Touching, she's so brave till i cant believe that anyone r able to handle it so well despite knowing death is coming toward ownself. If u r interested here's her blog : Grace Chow Reading thru her blog, my dad flashes thru my head. For him, its been so sudden for death to take him away till he's unable to finish wat he always wanted to do and giving me no chance to seek forgivness frm him.. leaving only regrets in him & me.
Question: have u ever think of death? I do, | treasure every moments | had in this world. How abt u??
My deepest condolences to the ppl at the affected area frm the KILLER WAVE.
Rest In Peace, Grace Chow.
Rest In Peace, I miss You, Dad.

Ps: I told myself I wont get moody in my blog post again when i start to blog after my dad death. Forg|ve me for today, too much things had happen... I wonder | sh|d blog my moody, upset post ant thou | always thought tt blog shld be my part of my dairy.. but | was afraid of affect|ng my frenz, mak|ng them more worrY abt me.. am i thinking too much??? ya, i think im..


Sch goin to start at 1pm today. Mornn claz was cance||ed. YuPpie.. Shd b sp|in rite n0w cOz seldOm hAd a chance for claZ to start this late for this semester. Jo din recieve my msg to her durin xmas eve abt claz cance||ed on m0n, so she woke up as usual, msg me as usual for meetin but haz.. dIn expect she d0n n0e abT t, mayb due t0 d network prob on xmas. Got a hunch she's gong to nag me aT sch today. Bess me.
Guyz, haf u watch the movie "KUNG FU"?? It's a nice movie. Rate: 4/5. Go watch it. Stephen Chow.. he's so charming.. Haa.. But the onli discomfort for me when I watch tt show, was we r seated at the first 2nd row of seats. Darn.. my neck breaking, butt going numb after the show. It would b better if we managed to get the back seats.. But tickets was selling hot tt time.
babY Dear going to work after sch today, not able to meet him. mssng u every m0ment.
ya, m back to my blogGng m00d now.. so watcha for more post~~~ Im runnng late for my date wif bee for lunch.. cIaO guyZ.


yucks.. | hate blogger.. change my blogskin but din surface it out.. Irritating me..



y0z.. im finally back to my bloggin mode. Its been a long time since im here bloggng. Anyway.. MERRY belated X'MAS guyz.. Did u all enjoy ya day?? Well I certainly do. Sorry to my clazmates, din join u a.. hope for another outng, will b there..
Its nice celebrating these festive season wif frenz & baby Dear.. its always fun being with them.. laughter & happeninG non-stop.. Every1 filled wif the sticky, smelly foam & those long tagglinG stringS.. it was a hell of fUn..
Don wish to say abt xmas anymore coz if m goin to write.. it' will b damn long.. so not goin to bore u all.. i decided not to.. But 1 thing to say was.. grlz out there at those farkin cramp & crowded plc do be careful of being touched.. Had a farkin unhappy thing happen tt spoilt slight of my mood on tt x'mas day. So grlz.. do be careful of it.. wonder y this yr x'mas to many blangadash out at orhard... those idiotic ppl..





Been packing my dad clothes this evening. I miss him. My first time missing him... but was at this time when only he's gone.


Silly me today woke up real early thinkin claz start at 8.30am. Den doze off at sofa & woke up oli at 8.30am. Rush to dress up n go for claz. Was in a mess wen I go out. Haiz. Clumsy.
Had my GEm claz today. Alone. I took Personal Finance Planning. Quite interesting. Lecturer not bad too. But the grp she assigned to me was like.. erm.. yuck. Haiz. N 1 stupid incident was tt I went to the wrong claz for GEM. Sat there for quite long den realise its a yr 3 claz. Was damn paisei tt time. Argh.. Stupid me. Today, we galz went to the "Er mei Shan" to check the Improve English claz. Think Jo, Sheel & Bee r quite interested. Me still wondering wan to sign up ant. Its a 5 hr course in 1 semester, which we can do at hm too. Can earn 5 CCA pts & as well can get a cert. Hmm... they haf 5 different course in tt. Its not bad. Hmm.. still considering.
Went hm straight after claz. DEAR went for movie wif his clazmates. So envy. Ah.. me getting abit tired. Post more tml. CiaO.



Today the 1st day of sch of our 2nd semester. My clazz.. finally i can get to c them again. This is the first time how i wish i would start sch asap. At least i can haf something to b busy with instead stayin g at hm anyhow think. Its been tough. I noe I haf to walk thru this bravely & fast or else someday I i just drop dwn. Im exhausted frm smilling in front of every1 but at the back.. im not the same anymore. I haf been so afriad of dark & nights lately... Damn.. hope the start of sch can help me get more better.
Back to sch. Fark my maths lect. Mrs Yap. Wats if u r a part time lect. Don like ya attitude. Miss my sem1 math lect. She is gd with gd responsibility & concern for our work. Day at sch was fine all along except kinda pissed off by the math lect early morning. Had to form grp again at the 1st day of sch. Argh.. I hate formin grps. Always haf to worry Bee & Sheel haf partners ant...
Met DEAR after sch. Went to Queenstown SC. DEAR lookin for jean. While i dropby to visit my long lost sec fren - Karen. Keez. She look great. Anway, tonight is the so-call Hui Hun of my dad (the spirit of dead come back hm). Mum been busy preparin food & incense for my dad. Din slp really well lately. Doubt I can slp tonite too. My poor eyes.. goin black....

PS: thks Jeremy for drawin the tatoo mark for me. Its nice. I like it. Im so surprised u will rem to draw for me. Thks Jem.




It been a long time since im here blogging. Life for me this past week was a torture. My dad, he left us on 29th Nov '04. Right in front of me & my mum. Its been real tough. D wake was for 3 days.
Thanks every friends of mine, your most sincere concern & care to me durin those days. Thks Jo, Sarah for dropping by. Thks all my 1999 2B2 for coming too. All of ya presence tt time gave me warmth & the strength to pull my tears back n fought with d sadness. And to Alan too, thks for acc me at the final day of the wake..
To my beloved DEAR: You haf been accompany through all those nights wif me. D strength u given me is so huge tt keeps me goin on & on.. i cant imagine the nights without u beside me. I may haf dropped dwn real fast... I love you.
To my Dad: Im sorry. Im a bad daughter tt you had. Its only when u r gone den i realise so much things. Its so sudden. I hated myself. I regret. Regret tt nite, y i din react properly with ya shout. Regret tt I had not been a gd daughter to u. Regret i neglect everything. I had wanted to say IM SORRY to u so much on d wake. But words just stuck at my throat. I hate myself. Y shld i haf to wait till this time den say tt to u...
Its only when someone leave u.. u start to think of his good.. his bad things become so minor. Love the ones tt care for u. Treasure them.. don start to treasure them when things start to happen. Don regret. Or u will b like me.. regret for life...

To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.

Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March. I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven.

















































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