Princesse de la Licorne

Have you ever tried to swallow your tears too much when till ur body unable to take it anymore and when u realise no matter how u wanna cry it out, its soo hard to have it pouring out.

Then you went to watch a show that u know it will able to move u to tears with those touchy storylines and songs. But halfway, you realise that you are crying so hard that you are actually not concentrating on your show anymore....

I always did these method to relieve myself. Called me freak, crazy, siao, watevea la. I stored a few dramas with gd storylines tt move me to tears. I use that to relieve my tears. When a person hide its tears too much n you forget how to cry anymore..

I haven been in slp since yester early wake frm 5.45am till this freaky time.. not challenging my limits, not hao lian how strong i can tahan without slping. I tried hard to slp.. bt i cant... I msn him loads of shits i wanted to tell him at ard 3am. As usual, i gave him mornin call at 5.30am. Cold shoulder is all i get. I tout myself mayb i will slp after he read my msg to him and he will sms me.. i waited till 7am, the time he started work. Nth came to my hp. Numbness. I force hard for myself not to think anything. Mayb he din haf the time to read it with those time nided to prepare to work or even he din even recieve my msg at all.. these are the only lies i can make it out to convince myself. Again force myself to close my eyes n rest. Nth. Not working. Those forcing.. is damn ineffective. i felt sick. I know i nid rest. bt somehow my mind, im nt working well enuff.

I know i said it alot times, mayb its time i shld loose my hand. He did nth wrong to me. No third party. No watever, its just im starting to get even more lost.. lost from the world we once had. Why he can be able to control all my emotion, my life so easily. I felt i sank too deep.. deeper den i tout i shldnt haf. i shldnt be like tt.. he's there happily chit chatting goin on with his life gibing me those cold shoulder while im suffering so hard here frm his pathetic small gesture of cold shoulder to me. I tink i sank too deep. it freaking me out. yeah.. its so freaky. Tire. This time, im really tire. I hate myself letting myself sank so deep, letting my emotion played like a puppet. I know clearly myself if he called later, treating nth happen, i will once again back to him. Just so soft, so useless person im. I hate it.

Fark. I hate it.
CB. I really hate it.
Useless.

Citation du Jour

To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.

Princesse de licorne

Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March. I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven.

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