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Monday, October 31, 2005
10/31/2005 10:17:00 PM 1st day of school. Fun, Crazy, Laughter. Sunday, October 30, 2005
10/30/2005 10:40:00 PM  I was actually flippin thru my boxes filled with memories I had in my 20 years of life. Letters, photos, handwritten notes, cards... I was recounting back those moments at the stage of my hilarious and exciting teenage life. My teenage life is a phase of my life that let me to grow up and experience life. Perhaps the most memorable part of my life. I came to ClementiTown Sec on the 2nd day, transferred from Bukit Batok Sec due to that parrticular year MOE had mixed-up with the enrolment. Almost ppl ard me had been thru the orientation and there m i still a blur and confused newbie. I gave cold, hostile face to every1 cos i didn't even know them well and in actual fact, my heart was pumping fast. Surprising, the 1st frends i had was a girl call Shuwei which is seated beside me and Anna seated in front of me. We created lotsa fun, crazy moments and history for our 1st year in sec, especially with the latter frend. Every1 expect sec1 students to be obedient, blur blur & guai guai. Remember during sec we have to attend Assembly.. you have to be seated cross legged on the floor packed with students in a small and hot assembly hall, wearing tie, singing sch songs and listening to those bullshit they are talking. Within the 3 mths in sec1, we 3 girls (Shuwei, Anna, me) started to skip the Assembly after sch (our sch stated that Assembly is consider as a class lesson, doh~) Teachers start to notice us. 1 particular morning, the Discipline Master announced our name during flag raising. We were called up and stand high up at the platform for the whole sch to look at. Since then, we started to get attention from everywhere, students and teachers. We have some random so called sch gangster approaching us accusing us of too 'xia lan' or staring at them, threatening to beat us up, and also guys approaching us to be frendz and a few of the guys den become my those so-called 'puppy love'. And also so-called gangsters after threatening will become our god-sis and guys whose don't managed to win our heart will become our god-bro. Coming to sec2, Anna & 1 started to be real close. We held lotsa memories together, we did almost everyting together. We tend to be very rebellious, and cos of that, we steal things and almost had a close shave of having a police record. We hang around at each other houses, do silly things together and the most memorable part was we once urine outside behind bushes up in a small hill b4.. haha.. The most significant time of my secondary life wil be the time when I have to go through a trememdous test of friendship. Anna & I were really close friends like sisters. We have crazy times together, talked almost everything bt then, it change overnight when we become almost. For the reason behind why it's change to this, i will nt mention cos all along when friends asked me abt it, i choose nt to speak of it. We almost had a 1-1 fight with a frend of hers tt she asked to come along when we decided to talk it. I recieved threaten calls, scoldings voice-mail in my pager.. those times was hell.. especially we still have to see each other at classes. To Be Continue.. Saturday, October 29, 2005
10/29/2005 02:24:00 AM i think its time for me to come up here to update.. miss me boh... haaha.. bascially, busy slackin, tryin my best to SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP~~ I just took a serious look at my time-table n gOsh~~ damnit.. shldn't have took Plan B at all.. !! I shld haf a day without goin sch early budden.. bOom~~ lao niang all morning class!! shitty~~ neber mind, i gt my GUYZ acc me.. wats frendz for~~ to pon class together lOr.. This last week of my holis (treasure, treasure like diamond) i have been goin out often den i expect myself to have, 1 week 2 outings.. hahaha.. During hoils, my spending wil be like my 1 wk money can be spent within a day.. or even more.. so i muz control myself especially laoniiang decided to njoy this holis, nt findin any job. yaYa.. gotta say, my bro's fanz (members only 3 person?? haha) my bro is back frm Brunei... yupyup.. tt idiot Bangadash !!! he is so~~ freaking black~~~ eekk. see~~ idiot Blackie~~  budden a bad bad day for him yester, a frend of his had been killed at a serious bike-car accident.. more jialek is that kor passed that accident area with his frend w/o realising is their frend, only manage to see the helmet crashed under the car, serious.. damn.. tt guy, he's still young man, 23 only.. just came back frm Brunei not even a wk.. the day he's killed is finally his ORD day.. damn.. this world is unfair.. kor was like in a sudden shock when he heard tt news.. damn.. guy tears.. hard to resist.. i stood there, lookin at him, my eyes redden.. damn.. shldnt look at him.. luckily, he has his frendz.. wats frendz for, except to pon class 2gether & also to console each other when thing happen, no nid to talk, no nid to do anything, just be beside. Mon - went out with Dearie for a small shoppin spree.. went Tamp Mall.. (no offence, just feel there's slight difference with the 'west' & "east' side ppl.. haha) had my lunch there.. Yummy Steamy ( nt bad la)  somemore go free tissue papers.. hurhur  Don feel gd at TM.. duno why leh.. Den went Bugis.. bought a few stuff.. nth much to buy too.. cos also duno wat to buy.. Tues - finally had my com formatted.. damn.. i formatted twice.. still shitty slow.. is my blacky ( a name i gib my com ) dying?? wats frendz for.not only to pon class 2gther OR be there when in nid.. n also tell them directly how u think of something regardless its bad or gd cos u know tellin them its for their own gd.
My fav fav - Miso soup..Miso miso miso~~  and there's this person who's lately very into Korean drama.. i present u, our next 'big hit' korea drama - Tian Guo De Lou Ti Lead lady.... *drum Roll...~~* Miss Chuu Chuw Beez..haha (paisei for the bad effect of the snow and tt stupid backgrd of tt guy muching away.. gOsh.. ignore those plz !! )  hahahaha... okok.. enuff, or else she gona kill me for tt~~ 1stly, see Dage(right), piang oi, his ah cik pattern come out.. 2nd, see those plates (left), Funzi squash squash all the food btw.. haha  Our deserts.. Strawberry Smiles. perrr~fect~  real Strawberry outside, yogurt icecream inside.. perr~fect~  Additionial dessert - Roasted Pig (Solely for Beez)  Then also take present time frm funzi~~ yippieZ... hahah... I got MICKEY MOUSE~~ not the hand de leh... & also of cos not tt roasted pig b4 its alive..  tell u guyz.. must show the HK Disney label out.. must show off~~ haha. i heard kids and ppl saying bhind me, hey.. see tt 1.. frm HK Disney de leh.. haha.. wah piang.. sibei proud liao.. haahah.. XieXie Funzi !! haha  After buffet.. went rushin to catch the movie.. Deuce Bigalow.. nt bad lar.. rate 3.5/5 Fri - Mitup with Dearie for HIS shoppin spree after his work.. Went BV 1st.. bought his jean.. and also had my fav food there.. Weather too hot for Dearie.. so went hideout at Seiyu.. nth to buy.. Pls tell me guys.. how u gonna eat this stuff when u dine outside..  gOsh.. i hate to eat corn outside.. i wonder why they must add corn in the meal.. Budden anyway... Great dinner, great food, great atmosphere.. nth much to ask for. Den walked ard.. Dearie bought stuff.. i bought nth.. i wanna belt, see nth to liking. i wanna black pearly bracelet.. i cant find any.. i wana buy tops, i see i like, budden price too steep. i wanna buy bottom, i see i like, bt no SA ard, no price tag in it.. think of stealin it.. bt im a gd S'pre citizen.. wat the hell~~~ cant i buy something !!! 3 words to end : I BOUGHT NOTHING !! End with my Zi lian foto ~~ hahah  Xianz go drink Bak Gu Teh liaO...whoohoo ciaO.. Friday, October 21, 2005
10/21/2005 09:49:00 PM deep appreciation and zillion thks to my dearest frends for the concerns to me. Im sorry guys for nt returning calls and msg to you guys lately.. bt those msg n calls.. i really appreciate it lotz. Sorry to let u all worry abt me.. all i could say... u guys make me strong.. strong enuff to fight against my ups and dwns. I have been thinking alot.. i mean alot.. im much better now.. i duno how im goin to say to ensure you guys tt im alrite now.. somehow, some part of me, im thoroughly over abt it.. i thought it thru.. i will be tryin my best to climb out from those big holes i had sank so deep in it.. lettin myself to be more relax on him.. on me.. watevea attitude he is gibin me.. i will be more relax.. i won let myself to deal it in a way that it is gona hurt me.. i won't allow myself to be a puppet that allow him to control my emotion so easily. Wednesday, October 19, 2005
10/19/2005 10:45:00 AM Have you ever tried to swallow your tears too much when till ur body unable to take it anymore and when u realise no matter how u wanna cry it out, its soo hard to have it pouring out. Then you went to watch a show that u know it will able to move u to tears with those touchy storylines and songs. But halfway, you realise that you are crying so hard that you are actually not concentrating on your show anymore.... I always did these method to relieve myself. Called me freak, crazy, siao, watevea la. I stored a few dramas with gd storylines tt move me to tears. I use that to relieve my tears. When a person hide its tears too much n you forget how to cry anymore.. I haven been in slp since yester early wake frm 5.45am till this freaky time.. not challenging my limits, not hao lian how strong i can tahan without slping. I tried hard to slp.. bt i cant... I msn him loads of shits i wanted to tell him at ard 3am. As usual, i gave him mornin call at 5.30am. Cold shoulder is all i get. I tout myself mayb i will slp after he read my msg to him and he will sms me.. i waited till 7am, the time he started work. Nth came to my hp. Numbness. I force hard for myself not to think anything. Mayb he din haf the time to read it with those time nided to prepare to work or even he din even recieve my msg at all.. these are the only lies i can make it out to convince myself. Again force myself to close my eyes n rest. Nth. Not working. Those forcing.. is damn ineffective. i felt sick. I know i nid rest. bt somehow my mind, im nt working well enuff. I know i said it alot times, mayb its time i shld loose my hand. He did nth wrong to me. No third party. No watever, its just im starting to get even more lost.. lost from the world we once had. Why he can be able to control all my emotion, my life so easily. I felt i sank too deep.. deeper den i tout i shldnt haf. i shldnt be like tt.. he's there happily chit chatting goin on with his life gibing me those cold shoulder while im suffering so hard here frm his pathetic small gesture of cold shoulder to me. I tink i sank too deep. it freaking me out. yeah.. its so freaky. Tire. This time, im really tire. I hate myself letting myself sank so deep, letting my emotion played like a puppet. I know clearly myself if he called later, treating nth happen, i will once again back to him. Just so soft, so useless person im. I hate it. Fark. I hate it.
10/19/2005 01:05:00 AM in 1 nite... i almost cant take it... im in a crazy state nw.. in a moment to realise how a friend can be treated like tt.. and to realise a love can be turned to be like a torture... how fun it would be right.. everything is wrong.. WRONG wrong wrong... A terrible state nw.. a moment to realise tt how farking idiot im to a frend.. yup... mayb we are just schmates.. no idea.. watever u wanted to say.. watever.. i did nth wrong, i say nth wrong.. cos i still think its a irresponsible act. I choose nt to comment much on wat u said on me rite away wen some1 asked me to read abt it... nt bcos u r rite.. its becos.. im disappointed.. nt to comment more to complicated things more.. 3 of us, disappointed is how we felt.. to u is nth cos we are nth to u.. we may nt understand u... ya.. 'they' understand u.. watever.. ya, watever. Love shouldn't be compare. Love should give n take. Love should be compromising. When hurts surface, think of the wonderful times. When both argue, gib each other a time to cool dwn. When love become too much... fark those things. It doesnt matter at all anymore. I don compare love. Bt where's the love u give me to allow me not to compare. Devasted. Hell. Im not gona let u all shot me dwn so fast. Fark it. Tuesday, October 11, 2005
10/11/2005 10:07:00 PM back... have been quite busy with stuff.. so sorry peepz for not updating so often. well, actually nth much for me to blog 2.. din really wanted to stuff all the weekz im busy with in here.. actually, im here to say abt 1 of my trip last wk.. cos.. some1 asked me why i din update abt it.. haha... last fri went for my lifetime... my 1st time wor... ... to NIGHT SAFARI was abit piss off by some1 b4 goin there.. don't really want to mention much abt that.. its a beri irresponsible act... bt it din really spoilt my mood much.. a very memorable and fun visit... nt much fotoz cos its dark ok... no flash ok.. how to take leh.. thou i have a huge urge to take fotoz of those cuttie animalz.. so no animals fotoz... bt u guys able to see HUMAN BEING fotoz.. don worry.. promise it will be as cute as the animalz... U know.. us being the vainpot.. at the toilet... hahaha  Me, NiNi & Emily  Me, NiNi, Emily, Dage and Micheal....  u know.. go Night Safari, cos cannot take with cute animalz.. actually can lar.. bt must pay.. haha.. no chance take animalz fotoz.. we must tkae with Night Safari logo... den prove lao Niang 20 years.. 1st time go Night Safari.. bt wor... where's the hell is the Night Safari logo !!!!  Ta da~~~~ magic !!! hahaha I can announced that lao niang been to Night Safari wor!! hahahaha  the time we take the bus hm... Me & NiNi  Dage & Emily  yup yup.. us again...  and.. again..  well, u know.. those walking time we had.. really drained out our energy.. and energy is drained out.. stomach start to be more emtpty.. den here we are near Dage's hs Mac  its a great gentleman way of Dage to send all of us galz hm.. even thou his hs is just a few steps away frm Mac.. hmmm.. actually, he also shld be happy that got 3 cuttie galz acc him for the trip too.. hahaha.. anyway.. thks.. *wink* oh yeah yeah.. also.. a great thks and deep appreciation of Dage's frend, MIcheal... thks for the time and those explanations to us thruout the journey... and of cos for the free entrance to Night Safari.. it definitely alloww us to save alot.. haha.. its a really great and fun trip.. perrfectt... okok.. im done... NiNi~~ i updated liao... *wink* Monday, October 03, 2005
10/03/2005 10:29:00 PM firstly to start on my blogGing.. i wanted to wish 1 very impt person in my life.. ... ... .... .... Mama..  HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~ ton & tons of words i could say to you.. bt to cut it short and simple and impt.. Mama, I love you no matter wat.. u're my most impt person in my life i cant effort to lose.. thks for everything u had sacrific to make this family in such a wonderful condition... *muack* (( hmm.. i have a bunch of drunk aunties at my hs, hahaha.. nvm.. my mum enjoy herself will b top priority.. bt i think, my bro msg frm Brunei is the best present she recieved )) okok... my personal things done.. back to wat lim bu had been doin lately.. (( JunGE say he reading my blogg now leh... aiyo.. so pai sei... hahaha )) well well... after some slight recovery frm my sickness... lim bu start to have a big big cleaning up of my rm on sunday.. gOsh.. it's been damn messy since my mid-sem test start.. throw throw throw... 2 big big bags of rubbish~~ end of the day.. big big satisfication~~ perrfect !! for today, since my beloved mama have her frendz celebratng with her.. i make myself disappear for a afternn and let her enjoy... mit up with my dearIe.. went to Aljunied.. gOsh.. always sibei suay.. the moment laO nianG go fifnd him.. the stupid tanker come.. uRgh... aiya.. u guys also duno wat is the tanker all abt.. hahaha.. nvm.. back to it... den went to Bugis.. plan to 'return deity'.. bt his baby, which is me of coz.. was damn par toh yao.. so wen to my crave till last week.. Sakae Sushi~~~~~!!!! perfect.... yuMmylicioUs~~~~    misO sOup~~~ my fav fav~~~  dEssert~~ green tea ice cream !! smUackz...  oh ya. when we was at Sakae.. damnit.. a bunch of ppl celebrating some bday over ther.. gOsh.. our 1st time hear such scary laUghter.. lOud.. i mean really lOud laughter.. as if its liek their place.. pianGz oi.. pls leh.. PUBLILC place leh.. can go check dictionary wat is PUBLIC place ant.. haiz... Anyway.. dEarie and i went for some walk walk.. hmm.. din really plan to spend $$ de leh.. but toh.... lim bu buay tahan again~~ piangz.. lao niang spent alot lOr.. cannot lah.. nOt workIng nOw leh.. i muSt save~~ save~~ but i spent~~ spent~~ nOtti dearie playIng pranks to prevent me taking fotO.. i like this bag beri much~~~ its a love at 1st sight leh~~~ hahah   addition 2 watches.. black & white.. and a skirt~~~ haiz... haiz... 1 week go out at least twice only... eeehhh.... eee... im so excited and appy.. im goin to Nite Safari~~~ with my GUYZ soOn... yiPpiz.. n alsO... OUr Funzi... ouR baR-feR-lO... think he now at HK liao lar.. enjoyinG liaO lar.. gOing DISSNEYLAND liaO lar... thrOw us asIde liaO lar.. nvm.. laOnianG will make sure we GUYS in Spore also can enJOy... hmmpz... make sure he bring somethin back for us... im in a crazy state for Alan Ke You Lun...      he is such a cutie~~~ perrfect tan perrfect dimple.. perrfect smile.. hahaha.. perrfefct songs too~~ |
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To find the Unicorn again we must unlearn old lessons, seek new paths to familiar destinations, stop and listen to guidance we have ceased to hear and look deep within ourselves for right answers.
Princesse de licorne
Known as Xianz or Fanny. Born in 30th March.
I strongly believe in karma. So be kind and generous to those who needs it. Learn to appreciate everyone before you start to regret any time. Love unicorn, they are special
cause it represent my beloved Dad in heaven. mes amis
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